By Lizzy Hodcroft

I’ve been head over heels in research and developing content for myndr lately. Both myself and my co-founder are one of the few businesses to get on the pre-seed Ignite program for start ups in tech. It’s an exhilarating ride but it’s also raising a lot of internal questions that need to be asked.

I’ve been exploring ego and why so many of us suffer pain over things we don’t really care about. I’m trying to understand the self-inflicted standards set by others that we willingly accept.

I always tell myself that just being the best person you can be with pure intent is more than good enough. If I can do that, I can’t expect anything more of myself. However, if I really take the time to explore this a bit more, I know that that’s not enough for me. It SHOULD be enough for me but it’s not. So why not?

I’ve arrived to the conclusion that it all comes down to validation. I can do good things all day but I struggle to be confident enough in myself for that to be enough. I need the recognition from others. I even feel a little ashamed typing this post as it’s tough to admit that we need such support from others to find our worth. But I don’t feel as though I am alone.

From the very early ages of entering any type of school system our children are being held to a standard that someone else has made for them and what’s worse, we never get taught how to create our own standards. The justification is that progress is something that needs to be measured (I agree with that) and I’ll hold my hands up and admit that understanding what we have mastered and what we need to improve on is an important part of growth itself.

What we don’t do is help children to understand that there is a difference between the work that they produce and the person that they are.


We grow up defining ourselves on the grades we get, the clothes we wear and getting our self-worth from our infatuation with where we fit on societies scale of measurements.

And I think we are all aware of this to an extent. However, I don’t think I really knew how engrained this was until an exercise was put in front of me to measure my satisfaction with different areas of my life. 

I essentially made a ‘spider’s web’ of scores that I gave each spoke. Each spoke representing different areas of your life such as finance, family, home life and social life. Your goal is to make a near perfect circle over time, essentially finding balance.

So I started with the easier ones. Home life is good, I’ll give that a high score. Finances are okay, I’ll plot it somewhere in the middle. Social life? Uhh… well here’s the thing, I don’t really have much of one. I have lots of friends and a great network around me but as far as actually going out and seeing people… let’s just say I’m not used to anyone trying to call me after about 7pm.

So I started to mark this quite poorly, aware that I couldn’t even recall the last time I met with someone just for a catch up instead of also discussing business.

Weirdly though, I also realised that I didn’t feel as though this was bad a thing. In fact, having friends constantly trying to hang out and do things together with me sounds pretty exhausting. I don’t think I’d enjoy it.

I had been measuring my contentment with my social life to what I imagined it should be, based on the general idea that life throws at us.


I wasn’t even aware I had been doing it. I had forgot that this wheel was my wheel to be measured by my standards, my values, my metrics.

Suddenly, the score I placed on the social life spoke was pretty damn high. I don’t have much of a social life because I don’t want much of a social life. Friends are very important to me and I am an extremely loyal person but I don’t need to see them every day. For me, it’s enough to share the successes and pick each other up when we battle through challenges.

It hit me like a ton of bricks.

A lot of the pain I experience in my life, nearly 100% of the stress I live through and most of the worry I carry around is simply because I am still allowing others to define the metrics and measurements of my worth.

Things in my life that I am content with, that I am happy to plod along with are often ignored of that comfort because someone else is giving me a hard time about it. And I’m not exactly a confrontational person. If it’s going to be easier for me to just nod until you shut up, it’s kind of what I do. —- side note to that *** this only applies if you are someone I care about. If some stranger started imposing his theory’s and advice on me that I didn’t agree with, well, perhaps I would still nod and smile but I certainly wouldn’t worry myself with how I action his advice. ***

I let others around me set the standards for how I measure my self-worth, success, finances, loneliness and even happiness.

Of course, I will always care to an extent about what my friends and family think of me but I’m a grown adult now and I should be able to make the decisions that directly affect my life based on my values and no one else’s. I have to live it. I have to be present in my choices, they don’t.

If I am going to lead others to discover a better way of living with myndr, then I must start to explore my own hidden and downplayed demons and actively live what I am teaching. I also want you to understand that I get that trying to put theory into practice, imputing it to a real situation, is friggin tough. Once emotions get involved, the waters muddy pretty quickly and suddenly someone is pouring in fuel and setting fire to it. It’s not straight forward. It’s confusing and overwhelming.

At myndr, we understand that. We understand the frustration at being given advice that seems so simple yet becomes a bit like pandora’s box when we attempt to action it. We understand it because we’ve been through it, are still going through it and will continue to have to revisit our truths to guide us in what we do.

I’d like to encourage all of you to take a little time to think about something that maybe causing you stress.


Ask yourself why that stress is there. Is it because the outcome is valuable to you and therefore the expectation is reflected from yourself? Or is it because you are trying to accomplish a task based on another’s orders, expectations or advice? If you feel like you are lacking in some aspect of your life is it truly because you feel the pain of something missing? Or is it because you are not aligned with the norm or expectation that you feel you need to live up to?

I’m starting to learn how to connect better with my values. I’m trying to brush away the shame I often feel when sharing my values to someone that does not hold the same or even similar ones. I will not allow myself to feel I am disappointing someone because I do not share their beliefs.

I’d also love to hear your own thoughts, perhaps a similar struggle. It gets better together.